Hi,
Let me be a bit blunt and tell you a few things.
1. You had parents to move back with to cater for your Lodging and Boarding
2. I dunno what you are doing as your career after quitting your job
3. You are in America, where getting gigs is no biggie
4. You ARE an idiot for being depressed and contemplating suicide.
I had to make a similar decision myself, I am in a remote town, in a country where getting gigs is really difficult, I have mortgages to pay and lifestyle to manage (my lifestyle was quite lavish since I had a high paying job) I do not have my parents here with me to move back into, though a lot of people I know have suggested that I do and move back to a different country where living is cheaper. To add to that, I have had to take medications etc for my stress levels and am still consulting a couple of doctors. However, what surprises me is WHY SUICIDE, I mean if that is what I wanted, then my High Paying job was doing a good job of taking my life away.
If your friends tell you what an idiot you are, remember they are NOT really your friends, they want to feel better by comparing themselves to you and probably were jealous of your pay.
I have managed over a year and a half on my own, believe me this is not easy... However, now things have started to pick up, I am being approached by people and they want me to provide my services to them (mainly development)
I used the time that I had to learn, skill and re-skill myself, I was used to being a Manager, getting people to do things, i did mainly all the high level stuff, but now I am back to being a code monkey, nothing wrong with it, other than the fact that I cannot focus on that, but since my skills are good, I can manage to catch up in terms of deadlines, etc
The other piece of information that you have not posted is how old are you? That will also determine, what you call a HIGH Paying job. Let me say that I have given up a 100K type job and gone through hell, and hope that the journey is nearly over.
For anyone that is contemplating, you need to know a few things,
1. Do not quit your job on the pretext that you might just make it lucky
2. Have a plan, I did not have the luxury of a plan, had to do it for health reasons and other personal reasons.
3. Build contacts, spread the word about your work, it will take a year or two before you get to see results, the Economy is slow it is not just you or your luck
4. At every stage project professionalism, meet people and discuss your services as if you are a flourishing business, this will instill confidence in you and also keep your mind off depression and feelings of being a loser. After all the ONLY person that can really call you a loser is YOU what any body else says does not matter...
If it helps, take up something in the meanwhile that could be anything that gets you going, I felt that I needed to not take up such temp employment and went on hard with self development instead.
Hope you can take something from this and work towards something positive and make it...
I have been a victim of office politics and went through the same...
1. You had parents to move back with to cater for your Lodging and Boarding 2. I dunno what you are doing as your career after quitting your job 3. You are in America, where getting gigs is no biggie 4. You ARE an idiot for being depressed and contemplating suicide.
I had to make a similar decision myself, I am in a remote town, in a country where getting gigs is really difficult, I have mortgages to pay and lifestyle to manage (my lifestyle was quite lavish since I had a high paying job) I do not have my parents here with me to move back into, though a lot of people I know have suggested that I do and move back to a different country where living is cheaper. To add to that, I have had to take medications etc for my stress levels and am still consulting a couple of doctors. However, what surprises me is WHY SUICIDE, I mean if that is what I wanted, then my High Paying job was doing a good job of taking my life away.
If your friends tell you what an idiot you are, remember they are NOT really your friends, they want to feel better by comparing themselves to you and probably were jealous of your pay.
I have managed over a year and a half on my own, believe me this is not easy... However, now things have started to pick up, I am being approached by people and they want me to provide my services to them (mainly development)
I used the time that I had to learn, skill and re-skill myself, I was used to being a Manager, getting people to do things, i did mainly all the high level stuff, but now I am back to being a code monkey, nothing wrong with it, other than the fact that I cannot focus on that, but since my skills are good, I can manage to catch up in terms of deadlines, etc
The other piece of information that you have not posted is how old are you? That will also determine, what you call a HIGH Paying job. Let me say that I have given up a 100K type job and gone through hell, and hope that the journey is nearly over.
For anyone that is contemplating, you need to know a few things,
1. Do not quit your job on the pretext that you might just make it lucky 2. Have a plan, I did not have the luxury of a plan, had to do it for health reasons and other personal reasons. 3. Build contacts, spread the word about your work, it will take a year or two before you get to see results, the Economy is slow it is not just you or your luck 4. At every stage project professionalism, meet people and discuss your services as if you are a flourishing business, this will instill confidence in you and also keep your mind off depression and feelings of being a loser. After all the ONLY person that can really call you a loser is YOU what any body else says does not matter...
If it helps, take up something in the meanwhile that could be anything that gets you going, I felt that I needed to not take up such temp employment and went on hard with self development instead.
Hope you can take something from this and work towards something positive and make it...
I have been a victim of office politics and went through the same...
Tim, Vic